rainehasescapedsomewhereelse:

Getting rid of friends who are horrible to you is never a good feeling. Especially when you know it has to be done, even though you have shared a long past together. Some things aren’t worth fixing. It’s not worth fixing if the people you care about hurt you all the time and then somehow manage to turn it around onto you, if they leave you out of everything they do together, if they’ve betrayed you over and over again. It’s these things that hurt the most, and then you realize they aren’t your friends anymore. And I think in the long run that makes it easier to let go, because if they hurt you that much they didn’t care about you all that much to begin with.

I’m not a horrible person, I don’t do bad things to make them treat me this way, they just do. It’s sad, because I was and still am always there for them when they went through bad times. Always. I have my mood swings, but so do they. They swing themselves that hard they almost rip me apart. But the keyword is almost. I’m now smart enough to know it’s time to leave, and hurt enough not to care to stay. Sad but true.

Wrote this some years back but it is still very much applicable now. FUCK SO-CALLED FRIENDSHIPS. FUCK FRIENDS FIENDS. FUCK TRUST ISSUES. When will my faith in people, in humanity, be restored? Will it ever be?

(Source: rainetheescapist)

you know those feels

when you’re so into something

and you just wanna talk about it all the time but everyone else around you would be like wat

(Source: maybelletea, via monochromemarie)

Nothing beats monogamy. ♥

I am a worry-wart when it comes to the future. My mind races just thinking of all the possibilities I want to unfold, the dreams I want to come true, the goals I want to achieve.

This perfectly sums up about how I feel about this question:

“I’m afraid of being possessed by the world. Being possessed by ignorance and not holding on to my beliefs or what I feel strongly about.”—Marilyn Manson

Yep! My Mr. Awesome and my Star Girl.

It’s either I trust someone too much or not enough. I’ve always had trust issues, it’s something cannot do without. I can be pretty suspicious of others and I tend to scrutinize every piece of detail about someone. I’ve gotten almost all of my battle scars from trusting too much and being betrayed and shit upon in the process. I’ve lost faith in humanity a long time ago and it takes a lot for me to open up now. I’m more skeptic and pessimistic. Sometimes it pays to be like that. Generally, people can’t really be trusted. Not at all.

My mantra: Trust no one ‘cause nobody trusts you.

Yes, I would like 3 more kids! A lot of people think I’m crazy for wanting so many children hahaha but I want a full house.

It’s so unbelievably important because whatever you learn, it’s yours, no one else’s. People can’t take your education from you unlike other tangible things. Your education can take you places, let you do things you may not have had the opportunity to do, and it’ll make you less likely to be dependent on someone else for necessities. As long as you know how to apply your knowledge, your education and intellect will not go to waste.